What I've Missed

For some reason, I stopped writing my thoughts and stopped posting my entries here. At first, I thought it was cool. I realized, I was wrong.

I lost a huge part of me without expressing myself in writing. I missed a big part of my senses when my thought were set aside without any medium to record it. But why did I stop?

I just had nothing to say - nothing to talk about the days passed. But in between those days and nights, in between those ups and downs are the missed opportunities to verbalize the resonating insights, questions, anger, depression and happy thoughts of course! First, I was afraid to admit that I was missing my blog. Day by day, I've been wanting to write but I didn't had the courage to face my site and write. I planned to overhaul the page but I suddenly changed my mind and then shut the laptop off instead. What was it the stopped me to write? What was it that hindered me to express myself in writing for the past 3 months?

Work consumed my day. I can no longer open the PC at home after dinner. I'd reather sleep than to check my Friendster account. My days changed since I started to work here at Orient Square. After I geared up my skills, ability and personality in college, I'm back in the old habbit of waking up early for work just like in high school. Adjusting to the schedule was a great challenge. In college, I could sleep at 4am and then wake up at around 11am for our 2:30pm class in Arellano Ave. (AKIC), (which is a 10-15 minute drive away from home)! Now, I have to leave my place one hour earlier to be at the office at least 10 minutes before 8.

Maybe I was just bored of doing the same blog--sharing my thoughts to a few readers. Maybe I should continue with my personal site layout. Maybe I was just sick of writing. But I came to realize the value of this blog, whether I have readers or not. What's more important is that I've found an outlet of my emotions ready to listen and ready to accept whatever's in my mind.

Now I'm here at my desk checking at the time. It's 4:35pm and I'm tired. I just want to leave and drive myself to Mendiola. Better get ready for simbang gabi. ¿?